OMG!!!!!!!!! Da @$$es that r SMILE!!!!

Okay if any of u get it or visit Tokyopop.com u probably know about their shojo anthology magazine SMILE. Now I have been a loyal customer since the First, yes FIRST issue! But i go to resubcribe seeing how i have one issue left and i call and the blasted woman tells me that the company is not taking resunscriptions anymore. I'm like WHAT THE FREAKEN HELL!!!!!!! >:O WHAT KIND OF MORANIC COMP DECIDES TO STOP DOING SUBSCRIPTIONS. ITs the most idiotic thing i have ever heard in my ENTIRE life. I want the bloody zine deliver to my door every month and I don't want to hear this bull that they r not mailing it anymore. They r gonna lose so much money. Why? u ask.....i'll tell ya.......cuz their freaken magazine is NOWHERE! NOWHERE! NO stores carry it......only huge comic bok stores like in Manhattan.....u can't get it anywhere! They r probably goin out of business ro somethin but I DON'T GIVE A CRAP!!!! I want my magazine i want my daily dose of Mars and Peach Girl......wat am i got mailing it anymore. They r gonna lose so much money. Why? u ask.....i'll tell ya.......cuz their freaken magazine is NOWHERE! NOWHERE! NO stores carry it......only huge comic bok stores like in Manhattan.....u can't get it anywhere! They r probably goin out of business ro somethin but I DON'T GIVE A CRAP!!!! I want my magazine i want my daily dose of Mars and Peach Girl......wat am i goin to do with out Kiley being brought to my doorstep every month...i loved those damn comics. I don't know wat i'm gonna do...i can't get it...they won't resubcribe me...all my happiness is over....they took me smile away...):'(

October-or anytime i remember

Alright, school usually pisses me off and causes so much DAMN stress. I hate the freaken pressure to always get good gradea and do well, especially when I'm taking AP American History. this class is crazy. Its killing me gradually aand making my life non-exsisitent. Could somebady explain why they make me take a course for JUNIORS in COLLege when I'm a JUNIOR in HIGH SCHOOL????????????????? ANd the wosrt part is i can't drop out, w/o a reason and with my grades they won't let me...so i don't bother askin. But i can't deal with it. THis year is FREAKEN stressful...i'm so tired and i need time for me, and kiss dolls, and cartoons, but it ain't happening and its extremely pissing me off. Also, I have so take those God-FORSAKEN PSATs on Wed. foe college. College scares me, I have no clue where to go, I'm so lost, and NO ONE'S HELPING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate college planning, i wanna go to Japan (sniff...) I'm gonna pop....

The whole WTC situation and everythin that goes along with it....

Okay, I'm right in the midst of all this damn insanity, sinc e I live in NewYork and u can see the freaken smoke rising from the site across the water from my school ( yet another wonderful part to dealt with at school). I don't wanna even get into this that much because its to hurtful and everyone's know alrwady. I had to deal with a lot of worry and the sadness of my friends and juss constantly worried for my friends and my family. I don't understand how the hi-jackers could carry out there plan, but they beleive they are right. Now here we gotta worry about Anthrax. On top of all this, people come along and start targeting any one who looks Arab or is Muslim....what the @#!$ is that about?!? Theya re Americans and have nothing to do with it...they're hurting juss as bad. I had to worry about Crystal getting home safely everyday on the bus and especially after hearing from her kids waited with stones outside her house and people beat up and broke her cousin's arm. people need to come to together and STOP being freaken judgementel and prejudice. All of u who are balming innocent people in American becuse of their appearance or religion...ur all a friggin bunch of assholes who need to figure out whats MORE important in times like these...jeez

DA CRAP they dare to call DA OSCARS

HAHAHA! I laugh at what people consider fair and unbiased decision making; choosing and awarding the better because it is exactly that, better. Well, OBVIOUSLY, the voters of the Academy Awards don't believe in this concept.

Damnit! I'm so annoyed. I sat and watched that silly show for 3hrs and was disappointed so terribly. Argh! Its horrible. Its a sham I tell you. Now this may sound like da rantings of a crazy person but just listen and you will all understand.

Okay if you don't know the best picture of the year is "A Beautiful Mind". Okay. Right. A BEAUTIFUL MIND?!?!? BEST PICTURE?!? How? Why? WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!! Over LORD OF THE RINGS!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Excuse me and for exactly what reasons? LOTR had the visuals, the amazing cast, the music, the adaptation, etc.... What did Beautiful Mind have....Russell Crowe (ugh). I don't understand. LOTR had 13 nominations. Only once in history did the movie w/ da most nominations not get best picture. Well, add Lord of the Rings as the second. Now. A Beautiful Mind was a decent maybe even a good movie. BUT, the movie that wins best picture is supposed to be OUSTANDING. That would make it the best. Duh. Beautiful mind was not accurate and was not exactly biographical. But it did have that hollywood ending that they all adore...my a$$. Or maybe it's because Ron Howard directed it. Or maybe it was the "so-called mud-slinging"...right. Plus that it did not even pale in comparison to the profit of LOTR.

Now, LOrd of the Rings had it all and the paper said that having the 3 movies made at once is in its favor. Also, its extensive commercial success and enormous fan base.

But listen to this, "The only thing weighing against "Fellowship" are the poor record of fantasies in Oscar history..."(Ny Times 3-22-02). Excuse me...so that's what it boils down too. A BIAS AGAINST FANTASY MOVIES! Of course, I should have known, that's the reason that Buffy never won an Emmy. How DARE these people push this movie aside because of instead of it being in pure Hollywood fashion with the drama and the model, its a Fantasy. Is it so wrong to be in that category? No, you know what it really is, its stupid old geezers who are so rooted in damn movies that fit Hollywood standards and are relatively sappy that they immediately rule out any other that is genuinely fresh, bold, and groundbreaking with magic and beasts and kingdoms of lore rather than recognize its amazing achievement. JUST BECAUSE ITS A FANTASY! Right, okay, this is how it goes. Never, will I ever, believe that the Academy Awards are unbiased and they are just and award fairly. Its was proven Sunday night and my disappointment over this extremely poor decision has destroyed any positive attitude I had towards it. Well, I hope that this does not happen again since there are, thankfully, 2 more movies. If we are not cheated again maybe my opinion will change. And if it loses again, for God's sake, let it be beaten fairly by a superior movie and not ignored mainly on the basis that it was a fantasy movie. I just can't believe Lord of the Rings didn't win when it had so much going for it.